Trying To Kill The Nerves!

 Hello blog readers

Forgot to photograph
my bike, but I
did dress for the
occasion!

Another blog for today!  It's been a while since I looked at my bike blog, but here it is.  I was talking to Naggy today about when it was I had my accident, I thought it was in August, but actually it was early than that!  I can't understand why I'm still nervous and anxious about getting back on it!  Still, I did it!

My daughter has been talking to be about getting her kids bikes all ready and serviced, going out for a bike ride.  I had been thinking the same, although I kept on surpressing the thoughts!  I have such a beautiful bike, she is gorgeous!  All black with some cool pink flashes.  I love her really!  But I am still a little bit afraid.  I was even at one point thinking I would never get back on this particular bike.  Maybe just stick to my Giant.  But I have to give it another go.

I went to our shed, got my bike out, tested the tyres.....flat of course!  Open the other shed to get the bike pump out and then the heavens opened! Ok, ok, so it didn't rain so much as just sprinkled for a few seconds.  But I put my bike back again and the pump and locked up the sheds!

I paced about a bit indoors, I kept looking at the sky, willing for it to pour down, my mind all the time, telling me to just 'Go get your bike!'  I have to tell someone that I am going out for a bike ride. Just in case.  All these thoughts going through my head until at last I just went out and dragged my bike out again and pumped up the tyres.  A ran like mad across the garden and into my house to get changed before I changed my mind!  Still I hadn't told anyone that I was going for a ride.  I really should do, but then why, I didn't before.  Whoever I tell, they might panic!  Then I remembered that Naggy wasn't going to work today, I quickly called her and asked if she wanted to come with me!

She had just come back from shopping and needed just about half hour or so but, to stop me from getting changed again she suggested I sat in her garden with my bike ready to go!  She knows me too well!   I told her I was only planning on going to Normans Park and then back home!  I need to get rid of the fear of dogs running out on me.  It's weird by I do feel safer on the road. But the sensible part of my brain (yes there is a tiny bit in there) says that there could also be dogs walking on pavements that can suddenly just run out!  I have to just go for 'aversion therapy!'  Go immerse myself in the very situation that is worrying me!  I am sure it can only do me good!  Learn to look out for things like that, look out for kids wobbling about on skates, or scooting along on there no pedal push bikes!  Why don't kids look in the direction they are moving!

There are so many lovely routes that both pedestrians and cyclists share, I don't want to not ever ride on them again.  Todays little ride went someway to helping cope with that.  I am sure the more I do it, the more I will get used to it!  But I don't think I will ever be complacent again about shared routes.  Mind you, the path that I had my accident on was for cyclists, the pedestrian path was on the other side of the stream.....only saying!